A Farewell.

I sometimes get surprised over how Things change and how we change. Its like running to an ocean while each layer of cloth seems to peel off while we get closer to our nakedness while we run free into where we belong.I always thought ill cry that i shall leave now. Leave my "Maayka":P I Feel cold,impervious. Maybe its a rush of extreme emotion that my cold capricorn moon mellows and a rush of anticipation that my Cancer Sun arises.


I always believed that when you take a straight path somehow there are no crossroads. But then once you take one crossroad there seems to be one at every other end.And then when you begin to anticipate for straight lines there are more crossroads. And when there is a straight line you'd miss the crossroad!
I remember mys elf saying"There are cross roads everywhere"! and find myself incomplete if i dont see one.

But now it seem every different, After 2 years of work a 15 monther at MICA was ore than an angel could ask:) Now that we leave there is a feeling of belongingness to the feelings that were familiar to us a while while ago. Its as if im befriending myself all over again so that i can tell her girl wer back! And then i think of course i was always me here. So Why this lateral Relation.Then i know it. its the guards. When we leave a comfort zone to another comfortable/uncomfortable zone we have our guards up. This imbibes a feeling of cold and teary gooey choclatey low sugar craving.(!)

Then there is this feeling of realising how you are always on your own.The feelings you get when you travel alone in a sleeper Train , when you have to some chores yourself , When you are responsible for failure or success of your own thing you know! That feeling is back. Its exhilerating like as if my nomadic genes are waking me gently while my other side seem to restrain change. I am switched between myselfs! Its beautiful at this time to converse with yourself.

I shall have to live with it:) There are new journeys. there are memories. There are pains we carry. Some friends who have changed over time unfortunately , some who have turned out to be precious diamonds shining in my hands.There are smiles and trips we carry! There are sensations that reinstill independence , free spirit and pride all at the same time when the best thing you can be is yourself. With no Arrogance Intended.

I cant wait to wipe tears and walk new journeys.
I cant wait to cry shamelessly when i leave
I cant wait to smile at soft maladies
I cant wait to mean the best for everyone
I cant wait to explore new paths
I cant wait to burn my fingers again
I cant wait to shed off one more layer.

I guess my nature shall never let me show how much i shall actually miss.
But if you are close enough to the flame,youd know exactly which zone burns.
Phew!


I want to carry every learning , relation i have had withme bottled inside.So i guess if its a farewell it shall be.
P.S: I have never published anything this personal. before i rethink i shall publish this piece of "trivia" for the first and last:)

Vishfull'ed